My First Steps Out

My liberation began when I admitted something was wrong and I decided to change it. No big declaration was necessary. No one needed to know. Detaching was my attitude adjustment that rebalanced the relationship I had with my employer and the corporate Macho Rambo culture.

I loosened the ties by separating emotionally and later physically from them and doing more of what was best for me. I consider it personal leadership at it’s finest - putting myself under new management and reorganizing my life felt powerful. It didn’t matter that I really still had a boss.

It was tough questioning my old assumptions. Especially fundamental beliefs about the “contract’ with your employer. Even though I knew there were no guarantees I still believed if I worked harder and did more that I’d get a prize. Today, 10 years later I find if I am stressed I push harder and terrorize myself to do more even though I am the boss of my own company. What would I be like if I never meditated? Probably the battle inside my mind would fight harder and be out of control 24/7. Thank goodness I catch it faster.